I’d Forgotten To Title This Post

Blogged under General Blather, Ferrets, Writing, Poetry by Mary on Sunday 13 January 2008 at 9:52 pm

I’ve mostly been blogging over on my MySpace account. But I think the people there are getting tired of my two to three posts a day about pretty much nothing. So I’ve decided to come here and post about nothing another two or three times a day.

Let’s see …

Lately, I’ve been writing quite a lot of poetry. Some of it’s all right and some of it’s terrible. But I’m writing. That’s the important thing. I’ve been able to go back and mine some of my old journals, too. I had thought that I’d written nothing at all for a few years, but it turns out that I did write a few things. Some of them are even salvageable, now that I’m in tune with the universe again.

I suspect that most of the people who come across this blog are people who know me from my ferret writing, so they (you) might not know that I was a poet long before I even knew what a ferret is. I’ve never managed to write a poem about a ferret. It’s like writing a really good love poem: nearly impossible. It always ends up too schmaltzy or saccharine (or do those mean the same thing?). I’ve had to stick to prose when it comes to writing about ferrets.

Speaking of ferrets … I’ve been looking at pictures of all my babies. I miss them. They were such warm (in every sense of the word) friends. Maybe when I stop crossing the Atlantic several times a year, I’ll get some more.

That’s about all for right now. But don’t be surprised if there’s another post before this night is through. I’ve been writing all sorts of things, which is good. Very good, indeed.

–Mary

Testing Testing

Blogged under General Blather by Mary on Thursday 27 December 2007 at 8:30 pm

Is anyone still out there?

I have too many blogs. I’ve been blogging away on MySpace for the past few months. Nothing terribly fascinating, but I have been chattering quite a bit. Feel free to go look:

Mary’s MySpace Page

At some point I’ll write about all my new year’s resolutions. Not that I have any, but I’ll make it up as I go along. Why not?

As of July, I’m living with my cousin Amanda and her bf James, Milo the cat and Rufus the puppy (the puppy’s only been here since October). Amanda bought my Grandma Drews’ house, so that’s where we live.

–Mary

Rollercoaster

Blogged under General Blather, Exercise, Diet, Health and Fitness, Writing by Mary on Thursday 19 April 2007 at 4:30 pm

It’s the middle of April 2007. In the last two years I’ve had my thumb broken, my heart broken, my marriage broken, and my bank broken (that was today’s pleasant surprise, if you think of the most terrific antonym of “pleasant”).

So I’m just going to sit here in lala land (a place you can get to by way of the Ativan train). It’s a lovely place to visit.

I didn’t and don’t want to make a huge deal about what has happened between Eric and me. It’s a private matter. The short version is that we both decided things were not working the way we’d hoped they would and neither of us was happy.

We are now divorced. Still talking to each other. Still care about each other. But not married to each other.

That’s it, really. The big news I’ve been holding onto for the past few months, wondering whether I should let it seep out slowly or just blurt it out. I opted for blurting. It feels good. Everyone’s stunned just the same as if I’d said it slowly.

The truth is, I don’t want to get into details. I don’t want to gossip. I refuse to speak badly of Eric. I still care about him very much. That’s never going to change. Both of us have had some rough times in the past few years. I hope anyone who knows us will extend their concern and prayers (if you do that sort of thing) to both of us.

Here I am living in my parents’ house, biding my time until they’ve had enough of my company (I believe that’s scheduled for July 1). In the meantime, I’ve started taking a course to become a Certified Fitness Trainer. I’ve tried to keep my head financially above water (and I would have done it much better if it wasn’t for those meddling taxmen!).

That’s the news. That’s everything. Well, not everything, but the main parts. I’m hoping to become more active in something soon. Probably fitness stuff. I’m become amazed at how much difference you can make in your health, your mind, your appearance, and your self-esteem simply by sticking to a decent exercise and diet routine. I’m like a new person.

Oh — and I discovered last weekend that I’m actually 5′ 2″ tall, not 5′ 1″ as I’d thought for the last 20 or so years.

Mary

Personality Test

Blogged under General Blather, Depression & Dysthymia, Writing by Mary on Monday 11 December 2006 at 6:36 pm

I’m in a book club. Yesterday we got onto the topic of personality tests. One of the ladies brought up the Myers-Briggs test. Today I got a link from another one of the ladies and took one of the tests.

This is from the web site:

Jung Test Results

Extroverted (E) 52.63% Introverted (I) 47.37%
Intuitive (N) 55.26% Sensing (S) 44.74%
Feeling (F) 58.33% Thinking (T) 41.67%
Perceiving (P) 58.62% Judging (J) 41.38%

Your type is: ENFP

ENFP - “Journalist”. Uncanny sense of the motivations of others. Life is an exciting drama. 8.1% of total population.

ENFP

outgoing, social, disorganized, easily talked into doing silly things, spontaneous, wild and crazy, acts without thinking, good at getting people to have fun, pleasure seeking, irresponsible, physically affectionate, risk taker, thrill seeker, likely to have or want a tattoo, adventurous, unprepared, attention seeking, hyperactive, irrational, loves crowds, rule breaker, prone to losing things, seductive, easily distracted, open, revealing, comfortable in unfamiliar situations, attracted to strange things, non punctual, likes to stand out, likes to try new things, fun seeker, unconventional, energetic, impulsive, empathetic, dangerous, loving, attachment prone, prone to fantasy

favored careers:

performer, actor, entertainer, songwriter, musician, filmmaker, comedian, radio broadcaster/dj, some job related to theater/drama, poet, music journalist, work in fashion industry, singer, movie producer, playwright, bartender, comic book author, work in television, dancer, artist, record store owner, model, freelance artist, teacher (art, drama, music), writer, painter, massage therapist, costume designer, choreographer, make up artist

disfavored careers:

data analyst, scientist, researcher, financial advisor, business analyst, govt employee, office manager, mathematician, investment banker, office worker, computer tech, it professional, network engineer, strategist

Interesting stuff, I think. Here’s a link if you want to take one of these tests:


ENFP - “Journalist”. Uncanny sense of the motivations of others. Life is an exciting drama. 8.1% of total population.
Free Jung Personality Test (similar to Myers-Briggs/MBTI)

BTW - The book we just read is this:

I enjoyed it. Very enlightening.

–Mary

Karma

Blogged under General Blather by Mary on Sunday 10 December 2006 at 9:53 pm

Sometimes you can’t prove what you know, but that doesn’t mean what you know isn’t true. Sometimes it isn’t paranoia: someone really is out to get you; there really is a conspiracy.

Fortunately for those involved, I don’t make statements I can’t prove are true.

So I’ll just say this: You know who you are and you know you’re petty and ridiculous. Now you know that I know it, too.

Enjoy your karma.

–Mary

A Change Is Better Than A Rest

Blogged under General Blather by Mary on Thursday 19 October 2006 at 9:10 am

… though sometimes both are in order.

Soon I’ll be updating everything. I have a lot of news. Many things have changed, and there are more changes to come.

Mary

New Shoes

Blogged under General Blather, Bargains by Mary on Wednesday 8 March 2006 at 7:34 pm

I got new shoes! :D I’ll be posting some pictures a little later on.

Catching Up

Blogged under General Blather, Health and Fitness by Mary on Wednesday 25 January 2006 at 12:37 pm

The end of 2005 was quite a ride.

I had surgery on my hand the day before Thanksgiving. That in itself was an ordeal on many levels. The last I wrote about it, I was going for a surgical consult. First I learned that it was my thumb, not my wrist that was broken. The break was in two places at the base of my thumb, right at the joint. It was a bad break.

The consult was fine and I had some preadmission testing. The problem arose when I needed a surgical release from my primary-care physician. Everything was going fine and then he said, “I can’t give you clearance because you have asthma. You need to see a pulmonologist.” WHAT?! I was supposed to have the surgery the next day (two days before Thanksgiving). It wouldn’t have been that big a deal, but when you’re dealing with broken bones like this you only have a certain amount of time to properly set the bone before it starts healing the wrong way. The pulmonologist wild-card threw a wrench in the whole process.

My doctor tried to get a pulmonologist to see me that day, but was unsuccessful. Meanwhile, the surgeon was calling me saying they needed the clearance. I explained the situation. The surgeon called it “overkill.” My asthma is under control and I haven’t had a severe attack in a couple of years. In fact, since I’ve had this particular PCP I hadn’t had any problems with asthma at all. I’ve never been hospitalized (I’ve been to the ER and released) nor intubated for asthma.

At that point I was stressed beyond belief and angry. I tried to give my doc the benefit of the doubt. No one can fault the man for being too cautious. But when my brother — an internist — said seeing a pulmonologist was “crazy” and that he’d never required clearance from a pulmonologist for any of his patients with asthma — even those with severe asthma — I was livid. I talked to my doc and told him that he realized that because he wanted me to see a pulmonologist it would mean that I would not have my hand surgery done within the amount of time necessary to achieve the best outcome. He understood. I told him that this requirement could mean the difference between having a closed reduction (where they manipulate the bones without actual “surgery” — i.e., an incision) and an open reduction (where they put you under general anaesthesia and cut into your hand). He understood.

Fortunately, the surgeon understood, too. Although she didn’t end up actually doing the surgery, she spent a lot of time and energy to get things arranged so I could get my surgery done before Thanksgiving — and within the preferred amount of time. Without going into too much detail, I ended up at the ER and they had to admit me to do the surgery.

The surgery was successful, but they had to do an open reduction. I went under general anaesthesia. I came out fine.

I never saw a pulmonologist.

The problem with general anaesthesia is that it makes you nauseated. I woke up in pain and feeling sick. They gave me compozine for the nausea. It helped. They gave me morphine for the pain. That didn’t really help the pain, but it knocked me out. It also made me nauseated. So they gave me more compozine. With feeling less nauseated, I noticed the pain. They gave me more morphine.

By this time, I’d been in recovery for a couple of hours. I was zonked and nauseated and my hand hurt. But I decided it was time to move on. They took me back to my room where I tried to stop being dizzy and nauseated. I wanted to go home. Thanksgiving was the next day. In retrospect, I should have gone to sleep and gotten discharged on Thanksgiving (if I’d have been lucky enough to get a doc to discharge me on Thanksgiving!). But I soldiered on and got released.

I nearly puked on my way to the exit. Eric got me to the car and we went in search of a pharmacy to fill my painkiller prescription. We found one (24-hour Walgreen’s rock!). I got my Vicodin and we picked up some Emetrol for my intense nausea. Of course, I couldn’t take the Vicodin because that can make you nauseated. I went to bed.

When I woke up at about 4 in the morning, I wasn’t nauseated. So I ate some of a corn muffin, took half a Vicodin and went back to sleep.

Finally, I woke up mid-morning and I wasn’t sick, but my hand hurt like hell. It was the surgical incision that hurt more than anything. I had surgery when I was a kid. Heart surgery. I don’t remember this much pain. But I figured out that hands have a lot more nerve endings and that’s probably why it hurt so much.

But that’s not the end. Oh no!

I kept thinking that my cast was too tight. It felt tight. But I didn’t know it was too tight, I thought it was just me. My friend Melissa came out to visit (and bring me an incredibly delicious chocolate cheesecake that she made herself!) on Saturday. She took one look at my cast and said, “That’s too tight.” She ended up taking me to the ER to have it fixed. The fixing ended up being cutting a slit down the cast. Well, it wasn’t actually a cast. I should clarify. It was a plaster splint wrapped in gauze. So the bottom of the “cast” was like a cast, but the top was soft. The ER doc cut the top part.

A few days later they gave me a new splint/cast. Here I’ll take a moment to say that the docs at the Nassau University Medical Center Hand Clinic are great. My surgeon — Dr. Troy Callahan — is wonderful. He takes time to explain what’s going on and he explains things clearly. He’s knowledgeable, genuinely concerned, and down-to-earth (sometimes surgeons can leave a bit to be desired in the personality area). I like him.

I was originally supposed to have my pins removed before Christmas. But an x-ray and some discussion led them to stay in until January third. Six weeks with pins. Eight weeks with an immobile hand. I was amazed at how little I could do once the pins were out. Right now I’m in occupational therapy. My thumb is still swollen, though it does get better during some parts of the day. I do not have full range of motion and I might not ever have it. It hurts much of the time. The tendon along the back of my thumb is shortened, so I can’t bend my thumb all the way. I can’t bend the top joint on my thumb all the way either. The muscle at the base of my thumb on the palm is atrophed, which makes it crap up when I do my hand exercises. My grip strength is at 40lbs. About half what it should be.

This is not fun. I strongly recommend you not ever break a bone in your hand. Ever.

Oh, and did I mention this is my right hand? I’m right-handed.

If you’re interested in looking at pictures of the smashed-up car and of my hand (Warning: there are graphic pictures of pins in my hand at the bottom of the page I’m linking to, but there is a big red bar before you get to them), go here:

Accident Photos

I’ll add more of my fun story later.

Mary

Jewelry

Blogged under General Blather by Mary on Sunday 4 December 2005 at 3:00 pm

You might have noticed the display as for the Silver Jewelry Club on the front page of this site. If not, take a moment to check it out. A friend of mine pointed me to this site, and I’ve ordered a few things. They’re actually very nice! True, they are not large pieces, but they are solid and very nicely crafted. Certainly more than a bargain for $5.99 each! (Technically, they’re free; you pay $5.99 for shipping/handling.) I’ve ordered a few pendants with chains (the chains are available for an extra fee) and I’m very impressed. I’ve gotten gifts for several family members.

You can take this as a review/endorsement, if you like. But, as always, caveat emptor. I figured there’s nothing to lose getting something for under $10. That’s why I gave it a chance. I’m very happy that I did. I particularly like the London Blue Topaz. The silver and rubber ID bracelets are nice, but more delicate than I expected (still very nice pieces). I haven’t ordered any earrings yet.

Crash!

Blogged under General Blather, Health and Fitness by Mary on Saturday 12 November 2005 at 4:38 pm

I’m typing with only my left hand.

I’m all right, but my right wrist is broken (yeah, I’m a righty). An idiot !#$@% cab driver blew a red light, and I more or less broadsided him (got his front passenger side). The cop says, despite the BS story the cabbie gave him, it wasn’t my fault — I had a green light and I’ve got witnesses to corroborate my version (and the diagram of the accident also shows that the cab driver was lying about where he was coming from). Eric is no help because he was reading and only looked up to see the cab in front of us just before impact.

The Lincoln is toast (I was going about 45 mph when I hit him — hard impact, air bags deployed, radiator damaged). But I’m glad I was driving a tank like that. Eric has a cracked rib and my wrist is broken. The worse news is that it’s a bad break and I need to have surgery so they can put in pins or plates — or both. I’ll be in a cast for four weeks after the surgery.

Today I’m sore all over from the crash. But I take some comfort in knowing mine was the worst injury (a total of 4 cars were involved) and that the behemoth Lincoln saved Eric and me from far worse injury.

I go for my surgical consult on Tuesday. I’ll try to keep you all posted.

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